11 years today

My father had skin like leather hands like steel from a lifetime spent in the cottonfields though he'd come home tired and dirty almost every night he found the strength to smile at me and hold my mama tight while that old transistor radio would play the opry out in the hall I'd sit and watch their shadows glide across the wall

and they'd dance to a Dixie lullaby picture of love beneath the southern sky oh my what a beautiful life just like a Dixie lullaby

i left home at 18 in a hand me down Chevrolet packed my mamas goodness and my old mans stubborn ways it was college, work, and love then the babies came the youngest ones got his granddaddy's name and in the early morning hours when my children could not sleep.I'd rock them in my arms to a simple beat

and id sing them a Dixie lullaby hush baby don't you start to cry oh my what a beautiful life just like a Dixie lullaby

my father was a mountain of a man that was the description that i gave the morning that we laid him in his grave there with my mama by his side, we said our last goodbye to a man we thought would never die as i stood there in the fields of amazing grace oh how the tears ran down my face.

and i sang him a Dixie lullaby well meet again, by and by oh my what a beautiful life just like a Dixie lullaby oh my what a beautiful life just like a Dixie lullaby

this is a song by pat green that i just love i cant listen to it because it makes me cry everytime.

losing a parent at so young in life is hard you fill robbed and cheated their is so much he missed he died 1 month before i graduated high school he did not get to walk me down the asile he missed the births of my children and the joys of being their granddaddie (sometimes im happy he missed this part. they are too spoiled as it is) my greatest fear in life is dying and leaving my children. this morning jay and i was talking about a friend of our whos father is dying and jay said well maybe thats the way you want them to go . death is never easy no matter how old or sick my father would have been 43 on his birthday 3 weeks after he died he had never been ill he just had a massive heart attach i chose this way because he called from work said he did not fill well and was coming home told me he loved me and then talked to my mother and told her the same and never made it home I'm so greatful that i did not have to watch him suffer and it was peaceful. yes their were things i would have loved to tell him like how much i loved and respected the fact he raise me like his own and how i was greatful to have him in my life and how noone would ever replace him (not even my real father) but you know he knows all of that now and he is a part of his grandchildrens lifes hes their gardian angel.....

Daddy I Miss You!!!!

well on April 5Th 1997 my whole life changed forever the man who raised me from the time I was 3 until the day he died,was gone and he would not be coming back. he was not a perfect man but he did the best he could and made sure that i did not want for anything him and my mother were married divorced and remarried during the time that they were divorced he paid child support and made sure that i was taken care of. I remember spending spring break with him and not my real father. he was raised in North Carolina and came to Oklahoma in the early 80's only to go visit once I never met his family until after he had passed. when he passed away we did not have medical insurance, life insurance and he was are main source of income so this left my mother having to take loans to have a funeral so after 11 years we finally got a head stone for his grave. I'm so grateful that we were able to do this i fill the need to explain the photos I'm about to post he was from a different times than today and he was raised in the south so rebel flags where not uncommon so we always fly a rebel flags at his grave it is not a racist thing i promise! these are the words to a Alan Jackson song that really makes me think of my dad every time i hear it i wish i could tell you that death gets easier but i don't think it does their is not a day that goes by that i do not think of him and miss him dearly i just simply cope....


Born the middle son of a farmer And a small town Southern man Like his daddy's daddy before him Brought up workin' on the land Fell in love with a small town woman And they married up and settled down Natural way of life if you're lucky For a small town Southern man First there came four pretty daughters For this small town Southern man

Then a few years later came another A boy, he wasn't planned Seven people livin' all together In a house built with his own hands Little words with love and understandin' From a small town Southern man Chorus:

And he bowed his head to Jesus And he stood for Uncle Sam And he only loved one woman(He) was always proud of what he had He said his greatest contribution Is the ones you leave behind Raised on the ways and gentle kindness Of a small town Southern man(Raised on the ways and gentle kindness)(Of a small town Southern man)

Callous hands told the story For this small town Southern man He gave it all to keep it all together And keep his family on his land Like his daddy, years wore out his body Made it hard just to walk and stand You can break the back But you can't break the spirit Of a small town Southern man
(Repeat Chorus)

Finally death came callin' For this small town Southern man He said it's alright 'cause I see angels And they got me by the hand Don't you cry, and don't you worry I'm blessed, and I know I am' Cause God has a place in Heaven For a small town Southern man

(Repeat Chorus)

their is another one called Dixie lullaby ill post it someother time i think i have to do a new post for the photos its not letting me upload them okay i got them i painted the flags on the front my self and the poem thing on the back i used to always by him on hats and bummber stickers since he was my step-father! sorry for the long post

photos that JaySea took with my phone!!!!!

she may have a future!!!

i forgot this

Jay's cousin called me last night to go to this web site and this is what i found when i got their

this is a scrapbook page she did on friday at just4keeps and it got put on the website

past week!!!

well we had a pretty busy weekend on Monday i started watching a new kid he is 6 months old he was kind of crabby all week i think he was teething also his grandmother was here until 3 weeks ago i think all she did was hold and feed him!!! here's a photo of him. Monica has a play coming up on April 18th 19th and 20th it is the wizard of oz musical so on Saturday we got up and went to her soccer game this is here 4th year to play we left soccer early and took her to vocal practice while she was their from 10-12 JaySea and I went out yard saling we got a swing and a bouncy seat for Ethan and some outfits for him too...(he was much happier to day) Monica likes to be the Goalie (sp) she did pretty good on Saturday she stopped 2 goals!!! i also forgot that JaySea got the Rabies on Saturday! the photos of JaySea are from her First game it was so cold... Saturday she got a goal!!! Monica has only made one goal in 4 years i hope this is not JaySeas first and only JaySea seams to be a little more aggressive that Monica ever was well that's the last week.. this week i have a big thing coming up on Friday I'm so excited my Father passed away 11 years ago this Saturday and my Mother and I got a headstone for him finally we are going to pick it up and put it at the grave on Friday I'm so excited!! photos to come later!!!

spring break

so i always forget my password. we did nothing it was nice the girls went with my sister in law on wed. to kingfisher i guess they have some kind of indoor water park then spent the night with their bamma then to the omniplex on Thurs. then stayed the night on Thurs. with their Nana. they did not come home until late Friday on Saturday we went to Hefner lake and flew kites and biked around the lake we rode all the way from Hefner and the highway to the hideaway pizza on northwest expressway and meridian. JaySea rode in her chair that goes on jays Handel bars but Monica rode the whole way it was 12 miles!!!! Easter we did not do much went to church and home with both sides of the family for lunch i did not take any pictures of anything from the past week... or the soccer games the week before but i will this week...... i also got JaySea enrolled in a pre-k today it is a church school (not church of Christ) its Lutheran(sp) I'm so happy i will be sad to leave sonshine school but they wouldn't put her in the pre-k class this school is m-f from 12-2:30 and has classroom environment. they go from pre-school all the way to 5Th grade. (they also have all day K. YEAH) they other good news is if i send her their then when it is time for 1st grade Edmond had to take her if she has already had pre-k and k..... this turned out to be pretty long sorry have a good week all

HOME AT LAST!!!!!!!!!!!

well after a nice long vacation with just the hubby I'm home we had a good time we did not do much we went to city walk,and down town Disney bush gardens, sea world, a new water park it was fun but i think that i may have a small anxiety problem on some of the water slides i started to panic a little not because they were scary just because they were small and dark ??? anyways oh we also went to daytona a few days to bike week it was fun to walk around and see all the bike's here's a few photos of the trip.. soccer starts next weekend JaySea gets to play this time!! should be cute also some photos of Monica's school play to follow in the next few days we missed it but the grandparents made a video of it!!

sorry for all the photos these are just a few